Realization Drive

Most days I feel blank. Not happy. Not sad. Just blank. But today’s different. 

Today I’m feeling uncomfortably nervous. I don’t even know why. 

Today, I realized that maybe I won’t get a real life lover. Cos if ever I do, I’d ask him to get the Cole Mohr hair and tattoo and it would just scare him away. I have an incurable obsession, you see. That and that fact that I am a creepy creeper.

Well it’s cool you know. I’ve been spending the V-day alone since forever and its not like I’ve ever made a big deal out of it. It’s just like any normal day. Plus I’m not a big fan of true love anyway. I like boys (often male models) and weddings but thats basically it. Cos true love, it sucks. It just tears you apart. I prefer dreams. Cos dreams, they don’t hurt.

photo credit: fashion gone rogue (hannah holman for t by alexander wang)


About bananaboatblues

Hi! I'm Carmel. I like sailboats.
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2 Responses to Realization Drive

  1. misery says:

    I’ve been reading your blog for awhile now, but – this post today: you killed me ^.^ with the remark about Cole Morh (…he’s actually THE reason why I came across your blog in the first place). Well, I know how you feel about this.

    great blog, btw. just sayin’ 🙂


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